someone to care about you

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what Heide wanted: first doll
and here is what Julien wanted
such a shame that his wants were the ones granted

why am i so obsessed with Heide's misery.... bbu i'm sorry
i enjoy writing these two so much wtf

Like
Would things have been better if Julien hadn't liked this girl so much?
maybe

and here Heide thought that someone finally liked her and wanted to be her friend
Well, he does, but in his own fucked up, twisted of ways

 Like his headass thinks it's a perfect arrangement, the lil delusional fuck. Even now, he thinks the same, that she's his and he's essentially hers too, that they're the only ones who could understand each other, all that crap. And Heide ate sOOO much of that shit up, since he was the only one she had contact with for two straight years
The moodiest too... One minute he's berating her about how her family and everyone in the world dismissed her, but another minute he'd be kissing up to her and comforting her because of that fact, because hey, they understand each other, which means a little too much to him
He was the absolute worst with her, physically and mentally, especially since she was his first victim, and he was so frickin young. He was so excited "OMG I ALWAYS WANTED TO KNOW HOW LITTLE PEOPLE TASTED AND SCREAMED AND HOW THEY FELT TO SQUISH AND ALL THE WAYS I COULD PLAY WITH THEM AND WAIT WHY'RE YOU UPSET, YOU'RE HERE BECAUSE I CARE ABOUT YOU I THOUGHT YOU CARED ABOUT ME TOO---"
like the worst person ever

^{tho i wonder which of their relationships is the most fucked up, the rough draft or this final asdfghj}

probs the last thing I post for the week lmao. and here i was on such a role. I'm gonna be so busy with my bro's wedding this weekend, I got to go to their practice, be working at their wedding to fetch things and make the party guests happy, write some half assed speech, finish my financial literacy work, AND work on this very sudden project that was thrown at me. I'm mostly innocent dammit, why does this happen asdfgh
I'm so broke now because of this wedding too wtf

aside from all that crazy crap, I'll go back to Carmen's chap lolol. Since I finished 1/3, I wanted a break of writing to draw. Now Imma go back to finish another third, take a break, and write the last parts. it's so long //sweats hopefully you guys will enjoy it tho

Bye, love you guys so very much!